Goodnight's always turn n2 bad night's...and that SUCKS!!
hey guys...once again.I'm gonna give you my lyric post that goes sord of along the lines of what happened to me tonight and then I'll give you the story.
***I'M ONLY GONNA GIVE THE CORUS OF THIS SONG***
LOVE ME FOR ME BY:ASHLEE SIMPSON
HERE I AM,
AS PERFECT AS I'M EVER GONNA BE
YOU'LL SEE
LOVE ME FOR ME
STICK AROUND,
I'M NOT THAT KINDA GIRL YOU WANNA LEAVE
YOU'LL SEE
LOVE ME FOR ME
Now I can tell you the story...It was the end and we were all hanging outside talking and I asked my friend James if he wanted to go get a burger or something...and he said no...don't think so...I'm not hungery...Well after that we went to the huddle house...me and my gradfather...well not even 5minutes later James came in with all the other play ppl...I got really upset...I ran in the bathroom and started crying...and then ran outside to call my grandmother but before I even touched the botton on the phone James tapped me on the shoulder and said Are You Mad At Me?and I explained to him that my feelings were hurt bad and then I broke down in his arms...he said I didn't mean to make it look like I was ignoring you or that I didn't want to hang out with you...I just changed my mind...I said it hurts my feelings when you say no to me but show up with a bunch our friends...that really hurt.He said I'm sorry...and we gave each other a make-up hug...
See when ppl do that esp. to me I can't help but think that there is somthing wrong with me....maybe it's the disney maybe the stephen king or the fact that I have CP SPD BP Severe Depression,suicidal tendencies,I'm a cutter,OCD,Hystronia,and I suffer from axiety attacks,and Hyper Sensitivity...so....I think why would they want me there anyways...I'm crazy...but I'm always going to like Stephen King and Disney stuff so...LUV ME FOR ME...if you don't maybe I have some clothes in my closet that would make me like you want to...but I won't change what I like as far as Stephen King and Disney stuff goes and I certainly can't change what's in my mind...I have disorders...even I can't change that...so it really hurt alot at 1st but we apologized...I still am hurt...crying a little now...I feel like cutting...
B4N!!
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Hi, I am new to the blog site, I read your blog. Well my comment is this. You have to learn to love who you are. And once you get that in order then you wont stress about if someone will expect you are not. All of us has some kind of flaws. Some are out there, and some are hidden. No one is perfect not even myself. Things that i can change i will work on, and things that i have none control to change. I learn to execpt it and move on. Love life, because life loves us. take care. |
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And people forget sometimes that this life is the only one we get. My stepbrother and best friend of 20 years committed suicide. He was also a fiend to some on this site as well. That is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. At this point things may seem not so temporary but you are just starting out in life, there is much more to live. Think of everything as a learning experience that only makes us stronger. Nothing is worth the taking of your own life. And to be blunt it is very selfish. My stepbrother's pain is gone, but ours will live for the rest of our lives. |
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Believe me I know it's hard to hear from people you don't know, but honestly...it gets better! I don't know many who understands this like I do but it does get better! |
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16 is such a crappy age. I remember 16 all too well. You want to feel so accepted by the people you are "supposed" to be accepted by, and you internalize so many things that people say and do that you don't. You are going to meet many people in your life, and yes, many may not like you. But like you said, you are who you are, and people who do not like you for that are not even worth your time. You need to remember that the image you portray to people is the impression of you that they get. If you come across as confident, people will think that of you, if you come across as cocky, again people will think that of you - you need to be who you are and not who you think people want you to be. I used to care so much what people thought of me, and as soon as I stopped caring - it's amazing the difference it made for me. MAybe your friend DID change his mind - I have done that a million times and not because I didn't want to be with that person, but because I really did just change my mind. Do not cut - it solves nothing. You did nothign to deserve punishign yourself - and that's all that cutting is. It's a way of punishign yourself with pain because you think you did somethgn wrong. To hell with it hon. You are gonna meet a million more people in your life and make so many more aquaintances. Don't let the small things bring oyu down. Things will get better I promise. Highschool is rough - but you will find yourself and many friends. I am saying this from experience, as someone who's life as done a complete 180 when I never thought it would. Don't sweat it, ok? IT WILL GET BETTER. |
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Life gets better. I know that sucks coming from some stranger on the internet but it's true. You're only 16, I know right now that seems like ADULTHOOD! I understand COMPLETELY but I wouldn't go back to 16 for anything! I know it's hard hearing advice from people who aren't going through the same things, but seriously I was in therapy at 15 for severe depression, I KNOW...it's HARD! And it was something that I battled off and on all through high school. Because then it's like you have to prove yourself and be what everyone expects of you. It's not worth it. You seem like you know that...Good for you!! All you can do is be who you are...even though people don't appreciate it now, they will. And unlike some of the people that are now trying to make everyone happy and will still be trying to figure out who they are well into their 30's. You're a step ahead!
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